The way that he has assumed his role as husband has stunned me. I didn't really know what to expect of our relationship changing once we said "I do", but I truly do feel as though our relationship is completely different. He leads, he serves, he protects, he comforts. He has been such an amazing example of Christ to me in these few days and now I can't even fathom falling asleep anywhere but right beside him.
I'm not quite ready to share all that has been going on in our hearts lately about big, life things but this week has been particularly tough. I find myself just wanting to lay face first on the ground and sob as I beg God to make the way in the wilderness clear. It's a funny thing, thinking you have your life figured out. Then God decides to remind you that it's about Him. It was never about me and my comfort, but about Him and His glory. As I've already cried and he's already comforted, as we've prayed, and as we've discussed I'm so thankful for this marriage relationship the Lord has built. Now, I have a partner. I have a built in encourager. I have the biggest prayer warrior. I have someone who is going to walk this Jesus Road with me. Even though this season of questioning isn't really fun, I'm so thankful to have a husband by my side who prays and seeks and desires the Lord with me. We get to experience struggles together now. And in sort of a weird way, it's been beautiful.
Marriage is real life. Marriage is the laughs and the fun and the sex (sorry family. I really did just say that.), but it's also the hard decisions, the struggles, and the exhaustion. Marriage is all of it. And, girls, it doesn't wait until year two. I don't want to paint this picture that marriage is Eden. That my life is now complete and perfect because I now have a Mr. YES, marriage has been amazing and wonderful and sweet and exhilarating. But, real life still happens. Jesus still stretches. Jesus still calls... even when we thought we had heard his calling already.
This is it. This is real life. And my heart is so full knowing that I get to share these moments with a man I get to call my husband.
These are the marriage diaries.
22 comments:
This is such a great post! I've been married just over a year, and this brings back memories! We were the same way when we got back to real life. When we got home from our honeymoon, it was actually Christmas time, so we had some time before the actual real world started, and I think that helped us a lot! Some days are still difficult, and I find myself missing him at work. I still get excited when I go pick him up and we have dinner together! Just enjoy this time. Y'all have such a great relationship! It will get easier though!
-Sarah
limitedspaceorganizing.blogspot.com
OH SO TRUE! We had a tough time with it at first too, thankfully Kevin wasn't working full time quite yet and my job wasn't super tight on staying all day so we were able to sneak some extra time in but schedule sink in and it'll get easier...thus making the time you are together so sweet. Home life with a husband is the best thing EVER!
I thought it would be hard, the transition of living with a boy ( I've only ever had sisters) and letting go of my alone time but it was incredibly easy and I never want to go back! Enjoy it my friend! It's lovely! Marriage is awesome!
Trials and difficulties will never be the same and are so much more worth it when you have a lifelong partner on your side.
God sure is good!
Oh I will never get sick of hearing about your married life! You will be giving me good advice and guidance until I am married ;)
I can only imagine what this time is like for you. You have been dreaming, planning and waiting to be married for so long now and I am sure it is a huge adjustment. I am glad to hear that Ty is leading you and being the husband that you need and more importantly, the one God called him to be. It is great that you have each other, even more now than before, for all the big things in life and you will never have to face them alone again!
xoxo
Hearing this makes me so happy. I'm so glad that you both have settled into married life so seamlessly. I'm sorry things are rough right now. I hope they get better for you soon!
This is the sweetest most amazing, encouraging, beautiful post ever. It literally gave me goosebumps. I am so happy to read this, and it gives me such a hope for my future. <3 Thanks for sharing with us!
Ahhh I teard up reading this! You nailed it. It's an overwhelming feeling being married and having a life partner. That's wonderful he is already a husband that you see his role as a husband now and that he's doing a great job showing you what his role as husband is like.
I'm sorry for whatever struggle you're going through otherwise. I pray that everything is alright. How awesome that you have your husband to lean on through this..
Thank you so much for your honesty and sweet thoughts. I'm looking at getting married in the next couple of years or so, so I really appreciate the heart and honesty in your words. I praise God because as difficult as life can be, & as often as it changes (for the better or the worse), our great God remains the same, faithful One we have always known. Keep on keeping on in the faith, sister in the Lord!
I'm grateful for your candidness, Nicole! So happy for you and Ty!
I totally get what you're saying in both how quickly your heart can change and also how returning/re-entry to "real life" is hard. We've been married for 7 months and every.single.day I say to my husband "I'm so happy we're married". I am convinced that marriage is God's biggest blessing. Thank you for your open and honest post.
I'm so so excited for this series :) love your heart and can't wait to learn from you.
This is such a beautifully vulnerable post! Love it, and looking forward to hearing more about how the Lord grows your faith through marriage!
jorie
Precious friend, your sweet smile grew even sweeter the second you set foot in that ceremony. I couldn't be prouder of your intentional heart in this marriage, and I am so excited that you are finally living this dream we've talked about for so long. Praying every. single. day. for you and sweet Tyler. The Lord's goodness is written all over both of you in every picture from the last two weeks, and I know that will only grow as your marriage does. Love you both!
What an amazingly sweet post! My hubby and I are 9 months into our marriage and we still feel like that. Every morning is just as tough as you mentioned, and i miss my hubby so much when he is gone. But he is providing for our family and that makes my heart so happy! Marriage is the most amazing blessing and worth every little struggle!
LOVE your blog and am a loyal follower! Just got married about 10 months ago and can totally remember this feeling. I still look back on our honeymoon as the best week of my life and it just went too fast. It is hard to go from seeing him for days on end and just soaking up the bliss of all things newlywed (ok let's be honest...sex!) and then going to not seeing each other until you get home from work or class. But get excited because there are also so many good things that come with just doing regular, everyday life together! God is so smart in how he works all things for good!
Tavia
http://ntyrordinarysmith.blogspot.com/
Oh I love this, and it's SO true! Cant wait to read more!
I don't think you're pathetic at all! I know that when I marry my current boyfriend I will have the same exact problem. I am so glad to hear that Ty is being a true leader in this marriage- you two are so blessed! I'm also glad that you're being so real about marriage! I have to realize now that there is going to be work involved, just like in any relationship. I can't wait to read more about what marriage has taught you so far :)
I am so glad that I stumbled upon your blog! I am also student teaching this semester, and am getting married in November! I can completely relate to everything you're experiencing, it is so comforting knowing someone else is trying to balance all of these changes! Reading your pure bliss about your marriage, is oh so encouraging and is making me look even more forward to mine!
I can totally relate to not wanting to leave them. I was the same exact way when I was first married. We have been married for a little over 3 years and we still stay in contact all day. We kiss before he leaves, we e-mail/text all day. It helps. I think being so totally in love w/ someone makes leaving them that much harder. It does get a little easier, but keeping in touch all day helps. Congrats on your new precious marriage!
Love this! Love your honesty sweet girl.
Well my heart just melted!!! So sweet!!!
I'm glad you're so happy! It's definitely a huge adjustment, but it's so fun! Tough, but fun.
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