Watching the sunrise on the way to school one morning
Can I do this?
Do I love the kids as much as I should?
Can I show these students how passionate I am?
Is this what the Lord has for me?
How do I passionately teach and passionately love and raise a family?
What's after this, Lord?
I'll be really honest and say that faith is something I've struggled with since day one of this experience. I wake up every morning with unbelief in my heart and every morning I've had to say, "Okay, Lord. Today is Your day. Show me purpose today. I don't know what the future holds, but I know that you hold it. And I trust you today."
Every morning. Every morning I have to pray that the Lord would break me of my unbelief. And every day my faith is strengthened just a little bit. I love that the Lord is faithful in his pursuit of me. I may have days where I struggle with trusting and believing, but I know that when I open my hands and give him my plans and my desires He will fill me with himself.
As much as student teaching has stretched my faith, it's also been the biggest joy. I wake up in the mornings and head into a classroom full of sweet and loveable 8 years olds. They walk in with their big smiles and open arms and they just want to be loved and know that they matter. I love being their cheerleader and their mentor. I love being their teacher.
Do I know where I'll be after this? No. Do I know how the Lord is going to move in my heart through this experience? No. Do I know that I'm right where I'm supposed to be? Yes. Do I know that I'm in the middle of the Lord's will waiting on Him to lead me into the next step? Absolutely.
I can trust and I can have faith because I know that the Lord will never forget me. I can trust and I can have faith because I know that the Lord is faithful. I can trust and I can have faith because I know that in the midst of my questioning I can be a light for Christ in someone else's life. And that's all that matters.
Are you struggling with trust? Do you constantly ask God "What's next?" Do you fear the unknown? Rest in His presence today. Know that the Lord has a plan for you today. Know that you can be a light for Jesus today.
I love you, gal.
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