I’ve been a “C” for a whole year. A whole stinkin’ year, y’all. A year ago today I was sitting in my Mama’s living room having my last single lady quiet time. My sister and two friends were still sleeping upstairs and I just had the most incredible peace. After that, our day was perfect. Not perfect in the usual perfect sense, but perfect in that it was the day I became a wife and a day that the Lord blessed incredibly. I feel so much purpose as a wife and as Tyler’s helper. I feel so much joy in knowing that we have so much life left to live together. There’s just a tiny part of me that’s sad today. Sad that time goes by so fast. Sad that the wedding came and went and then the rest of our first year of marriage went right on with it. Time is so fleeting. I feel like we packed so much into this first year and I’m just thankful for the grace and faithfulness of the Lord. Marriage is sweet, but so sanctifying. I see my sinfulness so much more clear and it scares me to think that parenthood will only magnify that. I’m a big, ugly sinner, y’all, with a big, ugly sinful nature. But, while we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). I was reading in Ezekiel 34 this morning and the Lord spoke to Ezekiel and said, “For thus says the Lord God, behold, I Myself will search for My sheep and seek them out.” He searched for us. I see the gospel so much in marriage and I see a tangible example of how Christ has loved the church. We are His bride and while we were still sinners, He died for us. He gave the ultimate sacrifice. I’m so thankful for how the Lord has searched for me. I’m so thankful for the grace that comes with knowing Jesus as the Savior of my wicked soul. He is so good. Marriage is so precious to me and I pray that the Lord would grant you your heart’s desire if this is what you long for. Oh, it is the greatest joy of my life.
Tyler Cole, thank you for making me your wife. You’ve blessed my life in more ways than you’ll ever know and your presence brings such joy to my heart. I love you dearly, my husband. I’m so thankful I’m the one the Lord has picked for your helper. Now and forever, I’m yours.