Not every experience has to be “blog worthy”. Not every bible study or vacation or chat with a friend is going to adequately wrap in a pretty post with beautifully lit photos. And if we are rating our experiences in bible study on the ability it has to be spun into a beautiful post we are totally missing the point. Just because it doesn’t come together in all the right words and with all the right graphics doesn’t mean that the Lord isn’t using it in your life. Don’t compare your quiet time to what you’re able to produce in a post. I know this almost sounds silly since this was a blog bible study and we must talk it out to communicate with each other. But, I don’t want you to think that this study was a fail if you couldn’t put your thoughts or feelings or convictions into words. That’s okay. It was your quiet time. It was your time with the Lord.
As we wrap up this study, I’ll share the one thing that sticks with me from all of this. We have a personal, loving, invested God who loves and cares for us in personal ways. I just think of all the ways that He ministers to us in our times of need. He meets physical need, spiritual needs, emotional needs. He’s El Roi when I need to be reminded that He sees me and He’s Jehovah- rapha when I’m praying for the cancer to go away in my friend’s body. He’s Jehovah-shalom when my mind is tempted to fear and He’s El Elyon when I’m humbly on my face recognizing His might and power in my life. There is no need that He cannot meet. There is no place in my heart that He cannot go. There is no thing that He does not know. He is sovereign and He is great and He is Lord. I am weak and I am small and I am dependent. I pray that knowing these names of God will encourage me to call out to Him in those intimate and personal ways. That I would cling to Him instead of my own failing strength. Even as we end this study, my heart cries out Lord, I want to know You. I still have so much longing in my heart for God to move and do radical things in and through my life. I leave this study longing for more and ready for more. I leave knowing He is Jehovah-shammah, the Lord is there.
He’s there. He’s right where I am, right where you are. All I have to do sit in His presence.
As we close, I don’t have any pin-able graphics or photos that make my post “more interesting” or show that I’m a blogger who “knows the rules”. This is my heart, this is where I am. Blogging has been a sweet thing in my life. But now... the Lord is showing me it doesn’t quite have a place. Maybe next month or next year or never again. That’s to be determined. But, I leave this space knowing that Jehovah-mekoddishkem is sanctifying me all the way.
Lord, may we look more like you.